Bumps in the Road … <em>Already</em> July 7, 2005
Posted by Amber D. Evans in : Reflections, Chico CA , trackbackI'm not typically pessimistic. In fact, I'm really quite the opposite.
But I don't care much for exclusion; already a clique appears to be
forming … or am I just paranoid?
I'm not typically pessimistic. In fact, I'm really quite the opposite.
But I don't care much for exclusion; already a clique appears to be
forming … or am I just paranoid?
I want to do this triathlon.
I have signed up for it and paid my hard-earned $115. I am commited to
doing and completing this thing. More so now than ever. (I have money
on the line!) And I'd like to have (all) of my friends with me or
around me while doing it. "The more, the merrier," I say. But already,
"the group" consensus is not to invite or to add more people than us
four: Me, Berta, Jenn, and Diana.
Okay, I can understand wanting
it to be a small group of supportive folks, but I'm not as pleased with
that because my past experiences with all women is that the smaller and
closer knit you become, the more back-biting, stabbing, and gossiping
occurs. My solution? Add enough people to the mix, and polite etiquette
keeps it from getting ugly.
I kinda' think that people are like
salads, throw it all together, mix it up, and you get unusual and
interesting combinations. Not always pleasant, but at least you can
pick and choose what you want out of it. Say you need to vent? Blow
some steam to some other member and be done with it. No sides to take,
because out of 10 people, it's not worth it. Out of 3 people, it
becomes dangerous.
I'm really concerned because I'm very serious
about my training and my triathlon goals. So much so, that I'm willing
to go it alone at times just because I don't feel like being with
others and/or because of schedule conflits. Thing is, I've already
figured out that I don't need anyone else to get me through this. I
like the company so far, but if need be, I'd be good to go from here on
out alone. In some way, I almost anticipate as much will happen. (So,
am I seeing the inevitable or causing the end? Therein lies the rub!)
Well, we'll see. I have high hopes, though. This is a good group of ladies, even though it's small.
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