September 2006 in Review September 30, 2006
Posted by Amber D. Evans in : Assessments, Blacksburg VA, Training Stats , add a commentWhat I’ve done between the 1st and the end of the month.
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Total Hours: 11.3; Calories Burned: 6,647.
Alive is a state of (mental) being … September 1, 2006
Posted by Amber D. Evans in : Reflections, Blacksburg VA , 3 commentsI’m not always so sure I’d say that I’m alive. Sometimes I feel as though I’m merely existing, if that makes sense.
There’s been some crazy ups and downs in this past month. I’ve got a few, very close–but too new–friends here helping me through the troubles. There’s no doubt that I’ve experienced lonliness and homesickness, though. It’s been especially bad this week. I burst into tears at seemingly random moments (mostly when I’m alone or with my friends) because sometimes I just wish I was back home with my family and old friends whom innately understand me and all the things I’ve endured before and whom know how best to handle me. I’m lacking and missing the familiarity of longtime friends and loves. The new is fun and exciting, but lacks the historical record of solidarity. Right now, I feel the lack of foundation and am left to stand on the (strong, but single) pillar of self. There’s no doubt I am leaning heavily on my new, closest friends, but I lean on them in tentative measure, not sure whether or not they will collapse under my weight.
My troubles have definitely taken their toll on my tri training. Financially, I cannot afford my upcoming events. So my drive has dwindled. The tri club here in BBurg is definitely active, but I am not. (more…)